18

Today, I turn 18.

Whenever I receive a birthday text on my phone I'll go all 'AWWW OMG SO SWEEET' but the moment I sink back into reality.... I actually feel pretty shit. Well well things do appear rather fucked up right now, relationship breakdowns are really killing me and it stops me from practically functioning. Still, always look at the brighter side right. I really enjoy going to school everyday, it's a perfect distraction from all the depressing nonsense buzzing at the back of my mind. (Not the forget how much I hate going back to the hostel as well. Seriously, how do people survive with CURFEWS? Mother of god.) I love my classmates to death, seriously, 2AD4 is an amazing bunch.

Is turning 18 just like any other year? I'm legal to get married now and I'd love to but there isn't exactly a prospective candidate out there so, nahh. Let's get real, 18 isn't the year you begin smoking and drinking. You begin those activities many many years before 18. 18 is the year you sit for fucking A Levels and realize you haven't been studying much or paying any attention for the past 1 year or maybe 17 years and now shit gets real because A Levels is kinda like a make or break pitstop. As much as I wanna be a hobo (I kid you not), I think I'd prefer being a hobo with decent A Levels results so I can actually go somewhere to study something when the other hobos expel me. 18 is also when you won't be going to juvenile court when you fuck up, you take responsibility for your own retarded actions out there. Sigh obviously I don't feel anywhere close to being an adult now because in a few hours time I will be dressed in a UNIFORM making my way to college. Oh wait it isn't college, it's JUNIOR college.

It had been about 1.5hours into my birthday and I'm already feeling a little guilty because some people which you forgot even exists actually remembers your birthday and decides to wish you. And some ass which I wish would never reappear in my life just decided to pop in and drop a message too, uprooting all sorts of negative memories and emotions buried eons ago.

Oh my god why am I ranting like fuck, it's my birthday hello,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF.

& since I'm getting all dead serious about setting my life straight, here goes new year's resolutions I made in December,

Pretty common and simple resolutions right? But admit it, you don't stick to them either. So wish me luck.

Speaking of December, I have some random leftovers so I shall just dump them here,

Bye.